Have you ever felt like time was just slipping right on past
you and no matter what you tried to do to slow it down you couldn't?
That is a
feeling that is all too familiar to me lately. For the past week my brother has
been in Missouri visiting his girlfriend and her family. This is partly why I
feel things moving fast I think because I see my brother growing up and falling
in love. I see change in my future to my immediate family. But the biggest
reason I am feeling this is because for the past few days my mom, dad and I
have been spending hours every night after work in front of my dad’s laptop
watching old home videos.
My dad is working on converting them from VHS to DVD
and storing them on to a hard drive so that we do not lose them. This is not
something we did growing up. In fact, I don’t think I have ever watched home
videos with my family.
Every night we sit there together and we laugh and we
hold back tears as we watch the younger versions of ourselves on the screen.
For me, I get emotional when I hear my
mom and dad talking to me as a little girl. Hearing my dad say, “Jess. Hey
Jess! Jess, look here.” And then see my
little head turn and my eyes light up and I smile at age, one, two, three…etc.
And then to watch my mom help me open my presents and dance around the living
room with me in our PJ’s. It all just brings tears to my eyes. I have also
really enjoyed seeing my great grandparents. I hardly remember my great grandpa
Ponzio. He passed away when I was three. But when we would arrive at their house you would hear him say, “There’s my itty bitty princess!” And he was constantly
talking to me and calling me princess or pretty girl. It is so precious to
me. (I think this is why I have always
felt like a Princess growing up!) ;)
We have recently gotten to the videos of
Zach. I love seeing my brother when he was a baby! What I love even more is
seeing him and I interact. I know now, at age 24 (25 in a week!) that those
days were the days when a lifetime friendship was being formed. As I think
about all these memories I feel so blessed.
I am turning 25 next week. I
realize that isn't old but I can’t believe 25 years has already passed me by! I
feel like I can hardly remember it all and being aware of that makes me feel
like time is passing so quickly right in front of me. I want to slow it all
down but I can’t. I live at home still. I had many days in the past year that
were hard and made me wish I was living on my own and I still do want that
eventually. However, I am in a place in my life right now where I am just so happy
to be living at home and spending time with my family. It seems like it is the
most important thing in my life. I used to be so focused on my social life and
now I feel like that has taken a back seat. All I really care about right now
is soaking up every last moment I have with my family. I know now that time
flies by so quickly and one day you are looking back and wondering where it all
went. I don’t want to look back one day and realize it all slipped on by me and
I missed out.
I want to take it all in now, enjoy it and never let another
moment slip on by.
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